Okay, life has been full of stuff for me. Firstly, today went home by PUBLIC transport. That is a pretty huge improvement, considering the fact that I have been taking taxi home from tuition ever since 3409384765 weeks ago. Okay, that seems huge, maybe not that exaggerated but still, it seemed like a really long time since I last took MRT home. I guess this can be part of my saving money scheme. It is not exactly working out for me, I have been spending money like crazy, okay maybe not, but my wallet seems pretty empty. I guess it is the lack of coins to create the illusion of heaviness. Taking transport home enabled me to think of many various things, all linked up to one another. I thought through my whole life, and realised what a fool I have been over these past few weeks.

Life has been really challenging so far, I have not been doing well for the recent mid-year exams, and when I say not doing well, I mean really not doing well. Now, I am not ashamed to say that my L1R5 is 39 for this exam. I feel really stupid and all saying that. I guess life is not exactly all about exams. Eunice also said that, even if I do not do well academically, it is not the end of the world; I have other positive points like, I am pretty good musically. Well, not being good academically doesn’t mean that I am a failure, I can definitely work on it, and life is not just based solely on results, it also based on other various factors.

Life has not been a smooth breeze of wind for me. There are so many ups and downs to life. I have not been reading the bible lately, and I am feeling a lot like a Sunday Christian. This makes me feel really bad. I do not just read the bible for my family, or even for friends, I am doing it to ensure that I have a personal relationship with God. Even now, after the exams, I feel that I have been straying away from God, in a bad way. I really need to get back on track. What if today is the last day on earth and Jesus will be coming tomorrow? If this really happens, there goes my life, I will be in hell, God, forgive me of all the sins I have committed, I would love to start life anew. I guess this is not exactly possible, but with God, nothing is impossible. I will do my best to pray and read the bible and sing praises to God, everyday, no matter what happens.

I have been leading a really horrible life. Does money really make the world go round? Money is not everything. And money cannot get you everything, not love, not friends. Maybe you can buy friendship but it would not last long. I guess it is the same when it comes to love, so what if you have the money but you have a horrible personality? Money will not matter anymore. I guess that is what I build my theory from. However, money to a teenage girl like me means quite a lot. Money to buy branded goods brings a smile to my face. However, when we go to heaven, these earthly things would not be of much use. In fact, it is useless. Then again, when I donate money to the poor or the sickly, it brings a wider smile to my face; I guess this is pure happiness. This kind of happiness is what that really brings a frown together to form a smile, a sweet one.
Now, I really want to live a peaceful life, a life without worries. Hakuna Matata, it means no worries for the rest of our days. Well, it is really man who makes our very own lives complicated, I will try to simplify mine, and live a worry-free life, close to God.

Okay, today in one word would be "FUNNY!"

Firstly, I had church in the morning. Joshua woke me up, as usual, but I could not exactly wake up, much too tired. I really wonder why, I did not do much yesterday, and I did not have a nightmare. I guess it is just me again. Then, I finally woke up at 9, when he called a second time. Thanks yeah! I did not really eat breakfast, and then went to church. Leanne’s father took the class today, truthfully, it was really boring. Nothing went into my head, I did not understand a thing he was saying, I guess that is a trip to church wasted, and I will have to really go through what he said earlier on.

After that, we went to plaza sing for lunch. Dad scolded boys for quarrelling with each other. It really spoilt my appetite, thus I did not really eat much for lunch. Then, my mum has to go to Care four as my cousins would be coming for dinner today. That meant that I would have to take a train down to Somerset on my own. It was just one stop away, and I had to walk really far to get to the platform, really hate it. I cannot blame my parents, they have their stuff to do, but I really cannot help but be angry with them. I hate myself for feeling such things so easily. I already know why they cannot do it, yet I still am so not thoughtful towards them I guess I really ought to be more understanding. I will work on it.

Then, reached tuition, met Linda and Jane downstairs, we took the escalator up one floor then we realised we were late, so we decided to take the lift up. 2 to 4 was not really productive. We talked quite a bit. Linda, Jane and me did the worksheet on practical, there is going to be SPA on Tuesday. I guess this means that I have more time to study than the rest of the class. Although it is not really fair to the rest, but I do not really have a choice.

Next was the 4 to 6 tuition, Linda did not stay. But I guess I had the rest to push me on, it was really funny! All our conversation topics ranged from choir, to band, to singing, to ballet! I was really amazed at how Johnathan could sing. He sang a really high note in the lift, and Oliver was like pretty amazed as well huh! Wait till they hear me sing phantom of the opera!

I know my voice really sucks la, but still singing is one thing that brings my stress level down at times. When I feel really angry or stuff, then I will start to sing, it just takes away all my trouble along with it. It brings me to a world of my own, a wonderful world with no worries, no trouble. I guess that is what I want the world to be, impossible though. I got to carry on dreaming my fairy tale away, and hope it comes true one day. Then, I could not decide whether to take taxi or MRT home, the class really helped me decide. Maybe not exactly, but still, we flipped coins! The guy beside me was really nice, I dropped my handbag on the ground, as usual, and he helped me pick it up, he even gave me a smile. :D

I think I am touched easily, really easily. It just takes a small act to bring a smile on my face. Joshua bought his seaweed, and shared it with the guys. They did not have their weird tasting sessions today. I laughed a lot today as well! And the guys were talking in weird languages when they talked about the army and stuff. We also compared our weekly allowance. And stupid me thought they were talking about monthly allowance, so I said 120 a week! Oliver actually thought I was really rich.

Then, I said I wanted to marry a rich guy. It did not exactly turn out right; I am taking it back now. I just want to marry someone who loves me, and loves god. With God, everything will turn out just fine. Anyway, who cares about money, you cannot bring it up to heaven with you, and neither can you bring up popularity with you to heaven. I also realised today, how much I miss my water bottle. Joshua has the same one as me, coincidental again. It’s my third one already so far. And it seems like I am losing one every year. And this one got lost in the physic lab, never to be found again I guess. Someone get me a new bottle! It is the transparent Nike one, the one which can be squeezed to get water! A horrible description, but I guess it is the best since my brain is not working already, thanks to the 4 continuous hours of tuition!

Then, I took public transport home, also because the taxi queue was horribly long! I guess God meant for it to be this way. Now, I am back home, waiting for a chance to use the computer to upload this on blogger. :D

I guess, I really love my life! :D

I ought to treasure every little thing in my life, and not take anything forgranted. It is not really wise to do so anyway. Life is best lived with all these little things treasured, and pleasured. This is what life is about, not just about studies, but also the little things that come along with it. Example would be those study sessions that bonds friendships. These little things added up would be equated to a wonderful life lead in earth. Well, our purpose on earth is not only to enjoy life, we have responsibilities. Okay, this is getting really ironical. We have to fulfill these responsibilities as well in order to attain stuff. In conclusion, I feel that we should have a balance between these factors in order to achieve great things.


Ps. My family just doesn’t understand me, the way I work, and they way I feel. And they appear to be really nice people, but are they who they really are deep down inside? I guess not, they just SEEM to know me, and think that they know how I feel. ARGH! I feel like shouting out vulgarities. God, bless them, and me too, and help me to forgive them.

On a lighter note, this post contains, 1780 words. :D
A new record.